HELLO THERE!!! It's been awhile. Ya see, a complete thought in my head is one thing so a complete thought anywhere else...well it doesn't happen often. I will update our new life in another blog.
First I want to take a moment to introduce you to someone. Someone who from the moment I saw this little face and read their story my life, my prayers and my thoughts (though still scattered), were changed. His agency name (a name given to him by the agency, not his real name), is Kellin. Kellin is a little boy who is the same age as my two boys. Though I have never had the pleasure of meeting this sweet boy I suspect he is like any two year old boy. He loves to climb and jump and race through life as though there are no limits to gravity. Building blocks, though very fun to build up, are even more fun to knock down because the crashing sounds brings so much joy! Trucks and balls and even blocks are better thrown and super man is "so cool"!
But this is not the joy that Kellin experiences. You see, sweet Kellin is an orphan. After being found, he was placed in a sweet and caring foster home in China, where this once very sick, skinny, and sad baby grew healthy, plump, and smiley for a year. That is until he was ordered back to the orphanage. Where this baby, who once knew the touch of love, the rocking of strong arms and and a full belly, is left in a crib day after day. This sweet boy who was progressing so well, and while still didn't have the love of a forever mamma, was feeling loved, is now left to cry and long for the life he once knew, in dark, cold, and unknown orphanage.
Kellin is blind. This sweet boy can't see where he is, or know who is taking care of him (or not taking care of him) today. They say when a person is missing one of their senses that the others are heightened. I can only imagine the darkness that he must feel all around him. The silence of laughter and the lack of cries from children who understand quickly that no one is coming to quench that love, affection or need that they have. Since he is blind, the nannies lack of understanding of him and his need, leave him trapped behind the bars of his crib, where they assume he is "safer".
What about you? What if this was your fate? I can assure you, in my self absorb, earthly and Americanized entitlement, I would probably give up. Where is the love I once knew for a short time? I had obviously done something to tick someone off in my life so I was dealt the hand I deserved. The light would go out of me. So many kids live with this burden. It is often said by physiologist that kids will always find a way to blame themselves for sad, hard things that they face in their lives. But this sweet boy did nothing. And yet he waits, cries and is left.
This sweet boy is up for adoption. In fact he is not even on an agency list, probably because he has been passed up so many times before because he is blind. Can you think of any blind people in our history who have over come their need and made amazing impacts in our world? I said before his other senses have been heightened to take over where his eyes can not. And how many times has he had to adapt to the places he has been in, at only 2 years old! I have no doubt that this sweet boy, if given the chance, will MOVE MOUNTAINS!!!!!! I imagine he will be pretty dependent on mom and dad until he learns the ropes, but you know what, my two kiddos, home for 3 1/2 months are dependent on me also. I have talked to moms who have adopted children who are blind and all of them said having a child who is blind is so much less of a need they ever imagined! And I am sure any of them would love to talk to anyone interested in Kellin.
I pray pray PRAY for this sweet boy and his forever family daily. Actually almost every minute. I know they are out there! I would bring him home in a heart beat if I knew for sure that was what the Lord wanted! And maybe we can at some point. But right now I sit in the day time and think of a little boy who once knew warmth, laying in a cold, hard crib so far away, longing for a hug and tender touch. Please don't be afraid to jump! The Lord can do SUCH amazing things with your life if you are only willing to REALLY let HiM!
As I sit here rocking my own China baby boy who has a fever, I can't help but grieve for Kellin who doesn't have a mamma to nurse him, rock him or love on him extra when he is sick. I praise God I get to do this for Isac, but pray for those other children like Kellin whose need is great...
I leave you with this quote from Jesus Calling:
"When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength. That's why it is so wrong to measure your energy level against the challenges ahead of you. The issue is not your strength but Mine, which is limitless."
This is good news. Not by might, nor by power, but by His Spirit!! (Zechariah 4:6!)
And here is sweet Kellin...