Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
He predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the One He loves.
Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed. Defend the cause of orphans. Fight for the rights of widows.
Thursday, January 14, 2016
It Should Not Be Me
Every time Abbi opens her eyes from a nap or in the morning, her first reaction is always every time without fail, to wipe her eyes, look around the room, as if to resure her that being out of the orphanage is not a dream, and then a huge smile comes across her face as her eyes catch mine, her arms stretch out to me and she giggles then wraps her little arms around my neck. (Then of course she jumps up and starts her day at about a million miles per hour!)
To see her light up and smile normally really brings me such joy! To know that she is genuinely happy with not only her home, but so very happy with her family! It is what all adoptive parents hope for!
But like I said, sometimes the winds of emotions can knock you back unexpectedly. I walked into our room to wake her, ready to see the smile on her face. I sat next to her on the bed watching her sleep, and all of the sudden a wave of reality rushed over me, a thought that I had thought before, but I guess maybe never really felt.
I want her eyes to open and her face to light up, but her eyes should be looking at the mama who gave her life. The one who bravely carried her. Her arms should be wrapping around the woman who has her eyes and knows her little soul as well as she knows her own...it should not be me. Now do not get me wrong. I am beyond happy she does not spend another day in the orphanage! NO child should be there! But this is the reality for my babies that I can not change. A reality I can never give to them, and that breaks my heart to pieces!
**And as a side note, these are not feeling I linger on, or think about for long. I refuse to believe my kids are without the hope of growing up joyful and loving and confidant! My God is big and I have seen Him do great things in so many lives!
This is the fate of SO many children! SO MANY, EVERY WHERE!
Please share this post and let's find Cassie a family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS-someone asked a question on my blog last week about a girl they are looking to adopt, the comment got deleted before I could read it, some how. :( Please feel free to reach out again!